My inaugural posting to this diary! Seems like I should thank a person or three here, before I get on to the goodies:

For teaching me new Photoshop and Illustrator tricks, and sitting with me poring over nudie pictures for hours without once getting embarassed while we searched for the definitive herdesires picture. I think I shocked her a bit with the final choice, but it was so perfect, I couldn’t resist. Twisted, who me?

For encouraging me to do more with the “little site that was” and constantly throwing out damn good ideas for building herdesires into something great. This lady should really do this stuff herself, she’s got the mind for it and the instinct as well, but the web’s loss is my gain.

The Muse:
There’s a man out there who shall remain nameless who has helped me crank out what seems like unending reams of ideas for stories, although only a fraction of them are written so far. Yummy dark eyes, too. May he continue to inspire me to think like a perv and enjoy it…

herdesires will be a place for to explore thoughts of sensuality and sexuality. A place to play, a place to think, a place to let it all hang out. I hope you’ll come with me on the journey.

Who am I?

I’m a deeply horny, puppy-owning, santa-collecting, certified web geek (I have the papers to prove it). I’m a divorced chick in my late 20s who loves thinking about, reading about, talking about, and at times even having sex.

Why am I part of this site?

Well, I had always been writing erotic stories. Then, as they became popular, I decided to use the site to help explore my sexual thoughts and ideas in full view of the public. [laughs] Honestly, I chose the web the way a painter chooses to paint or a writer chooses to write. This is what I do, a big part of who I am – it’s my medium of choice.

The site also started because of the separation, which eventually became the divorce, from my husband. I had lived in a sexless marriage  for so long I felt like I had lost my sexuality. Exploring sex, reading about it, thinking about it, was one way for me to begin to reclaim that lost sexuality.


What do I find sexy?

Lots of things, really.
A man who pays attention.
I love the tease.
I also like chest hair.
Gay male porn is hot, hot, hot.
And I love fingers.
No, really, I love themLove themLove themLove them.


Some of my firsts

If you’re interested, you can go and read about some of the first kisses I ever had. Or the first boyfriend (not that he was really a boyfriend, but I digress). If you’re looking for laughs, you might enjoy the first time I tried to lose my virginity or the first time I tried anal sex, both of which are deeply funny.

I also wrote a three-part story about my first introduction to submission: part onepart twopart three.


My favourites

My favourite diary entry is called Victim of War, which I wrote several years ago.

My favourite stories, in order, are:

  1. The Lovers Part One: The Gift
  2. The Seduction
  3. Erotic Dream: 1
  4. The Subway
  5. The Elevator


For the record (in answer to questions you’ve asked)

I am very pro-sex-positivityPorn bashers drive me crazy; I have my own healthy little stash of both porn and erotica and I enjoy each equally.

The most important word in my sexual vocabulary is consensual. If both adultsagree of their own volition to share something, then it’s OK by me. Kids, animals, and the like do not agree with my personal sense of morality because they cannot in my opinion consent.

There are many things I have done, and many things I’d be willing to try. You can read about some of them here. Things on my absolute no-no list include but are not limited to: blood or watersports, plushies, anything involving diapers or needles or knives, anything involving the word “torture”, heavy-handed humiliation… not to judge those that enjoy these things, they’re just not for me.


Still have questions? Go on, ask away – I might answer! 🙂